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| this sucks big time.....my face is even more swollen now and really looking like a chipmunk....no more nice jawline and to make things worse, one side is even more swollen than the other......i hate not being able to eat.....the stupid penicillin gives me an upset stomach and i can't eat enough food to coat my stomach.......stupid wisdom teeth......i hate getting up at 4am to take antibiotics......stupid dentist.......why couldnt he give amoxicillin instead of penicillin? QID (four times per day) sucks for patient compliance.....and they have the same coverage anyway.......dentists....argghhh......and how the f*** do they make more money than us? there's no finesse about what they do.....the friggin guy was practically straddling me on that chair trying to yank my teeth out.....arrgghhh.....sorry bad night's sleep.....rant of the day.......
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| seems that when bad things happen, it's always one never leaves two, two never leaves three, as they say in Chinese....well one happened, and now two...i wonder when/what three will be? hopefully i can break the cycle, as i think these things are more psychological than anything....self-fulfilling prophecy?
my grandfather has reached the end of the road in his life....i think we all expected this was coming, but it still leaves very mixed and confused feelings. his COPD has destroyed his lungs, and what little reserve function he had is deteriorating. he's now back at st. mike's and his condition is progressively deteriorating. i think it won't be long before he loses the strength to breathe on his own. everyone agrees that it would be better to let him go than to prolong his agony, and his wishes are DNR as well. however, my grandmother is adamant that he not be given morphine as palliation to depress his respiratory drive, and hence, decrease his suffering as he struggles to breathe. in a way, i can't really blame her...i don't know what i would do in her shoes......your companion for life, could you really have the heart do initiate something that will definitely shorten what little time is left together? even as a trade-off for lessened suffering, it is a hard call to make. i guess in a way, we are all selfish.......
*i'm sorry. but if you were in my shoes, would you have, even for a second, doubted? maybe, or maybe not.....anyway, i hope you will understand and forgive*
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| seems even though the exam is over, i'm still in a continuous state of exhaustion, never finding enough rest when i sleep and never feeling having slept enough when i wake. my shoulder is constantly tense from that week of writing non-stop for 10-12 hrs a day. *sigh* i really need a vacation...haven't been able to focus for more than 5-10 min every lecture.
* add oil and good luck with everything you do, no matter what the future holds.
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| ahh...march break is over....guess it wasn't really a good one for various reasons.....so bogged down with work...........2 weeks behind and counting, not to mention other evaluations imminent......trouble sleeping again.....this crap seems to love coming around to bother me every few months....oh well, what doesnt kill you can only make you stronger....2.5 months left! ....i can do it! haha...wht shitty self motivation......last summer holidays of my life and i still don't even have my travel plans....someone told me tht plane tickets to china are $3000!!! anyway....back to work....hope this exhaustion will end soon
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| Happy Valentine's Day!
......hope you're feeling better and that your midterm went well.
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